Friday, June 19, 2009

Say Goodbye to Raoul

Capping off one of the worst weeks of my life, Raoul and I decided last night not to see each other anymore. He was unwilling to compromise on his lifestyle and I was unwilling to compromise on my beliefs and all in all, it seemed time to let go. I had told him in the beginning that I wanted this relationship to be something we could both look back on without regret, knowing we both gained something in the process, if not in the end. I am not sure I can do that quite yet. I think, though, that my regrets are the kind I can live with. I loved too quickly, I hoped too strongly, I believed too easily. I can live with that.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jen, praying that everything works out for you.
BTW, Brandon's finger might be numb for a while.
When I was a kid, we got in a wreck and my arm was cut below the wrist. I remember it being in a cast and one of my fingers was numb. I was actually chewing on it and the nurse told me not to do it. (I was about 9 at the time.)
The feeling finally came back but it took at least a few weeks or so.
I can't remember how long exactly.

BTW, I think I was on Ds's account the other day.
Judy

Donna said...

((((((((((((((((Jen)))))))))))))

Goodbye, Raoul.

No regrets! You did good. And you'll get through this icky part. I'm proud of you.

BeckeyZ said...

((((Jen)))))

Just remember that you know what's best for you.

Praying for Brandon, and you too.